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This guy is the antichrist
no really
Other than this nothing really special
Ive got to work during spring break
everything is fine, Elizabeth and I are great dating for 8 months now
and yeah Ive got nothing
give me a call im never really doing anything
And it is awesome
it rivals ridding dirty
http://www.collegehumor.com/video:173660
My Monthly statement
Went to the Orange Bowl
Was there for a week
Came home started working
Also Colin was right Engineering Co op is the biggest waste of time ever, I just want to graduate. I have to spend a year doing this and I wish I could just get a job after I graduate and make twice as much. I mean its better that being in school but Im going to have to do this sooner or later. "Ya know?", Well atleast Im getting paid. Its not so bad though, I do nothing accept play games.
who would want to be my bestfriend
who wants my attention
who wants my affection
who wants to talk to me at all times
who doesnt care what other people think
who would not be afraid to tell me anything
who would not be afraid to ask me anything
who would not be afraid to share new experiences with me
who is understanding
who is honest
who I can trust
who I can be open with, and they would listen
who would talk with me about things I shared
who would defend me against anyones remarks
Who I cant live without
who is respectful
who finds a common ground
who accepts everything that comes with me
who never gets bored of me
who always wants me
who Loves me
who just wants to know at the end of the night if your safe
who makes me feel wanted
who wouldnt do anything to jepordize a relationship
who never walks away from an aruguement
who wants to just ask me "are you alright?", because they truley care.
who wants a future with me
21 out of 27 calmed down
- Location:basement
- Mood:
restless - Music:mo town never sounded so good
Is this what I should feel like?
- Mood: cold
- Music:pints of guinnes make you stronger
so I fell asleep out in front of the advisors office cause she told me that she would be there so I actually was patient and waited an hour. I then told her that things were fine up until recently when one of my teachers pulled a whack ass test. In result my GPA might be messed up this semester resulting in me not being allowed to Co op. So I set my feelings aside eventhough I wanted to strangle her.
So if im not allowed to co op until the summer then im just going to take the easiest classes at uofl and fuck around because hell I always wanted to learn ball room dancing and play racketball, so why not.
On another note I feel like after this spring regaurdless of how much i want to have fun I feel that I need to move home.
also today I had a swim meet for Intermurals which turned out great because my team won with me and a friend scoring a two thirds together and a third individually each for our team, So yeah I feel like a bad ass. On a bad note this has never happend to me I completly fucked my right leg out and I have never been in a situation where I have need help from a friend to get out of the pool. So yeah im walking odd and I dont know what its going to do tomorrow.
After the meet I went to denys which I was accompanied by no joke 25 people. So we took the whole back room and things just got out of hand. I had a syrup race with a pledge where we raced to kill a bottle of syrup, I won but all I got was sugar buzz.
During the nights random douchebaggery of chugging hot sauce and sugar coke lines, a pledge looked at me and asked me a question for our info which said "if you were gonna die tomorrow what would you do right now?"... I liked what I thought
So their is a real update
thats for you kelly, cause you said i never write anything normal.
Anyway what would you all say to that question though?
shes comfortable
right now other than school.... I have not a care in the world
I have what I want, now its just a simple matter of relaxing
there is nothing better than just being able to lay down physically, and also lay down any walls, covers, or versades in my life.
I went to western to visit her this weekend and there was a point where I have never felt so comfortable in all my life, and I didnt have to say anything.
~me..... not talk, thats rare~
and doesnt it suite me
"6 , 6 beers, ah ah ahhhh!"
It seems like everything has changed so much in the past couple of months that I have just accepted it as a transition in my life. My relationships with many people have changed in the past couple of months for the better and the worst.
If you read this and you agree, you dont need to post anything because I can guess who believes this as true.
Things are different now though Im the Head coach of the Gators swim team, which puts me in a lot of responsibility and a great pay raise but that besides the point. I just feel different at work I guess in a good way.
School is terrible right now, im just having problems with certain faculty members.
I get to Co-op next semester so im interviewing right now which is great because im meeting a lot of great jobs and I will hopefully be placed soon
on a negative note, I just feel like I have no time anymore, its either im always sick or tired or to busy with school work, or work to ever do anything and then by the time the weeks over the only thing I want to do is she the girl I Love, and I honestly do.
On the bright side, it has been awhile but I have finally met someone I Love, Im crazy about her, and she is really the only thing right now that makes me calm and cheerful. because to be quite honest I told my mother (and if you all dont know anything I dont talk to my mother about personal issues, just never) I told her that nothing was fun anymore, that my life is terrible. So I am so thankful that I have someone in my life right now that makes me not worry about a thing when she is around. i am the calm center of my own world.
She honestly makes me the happiest Ive been In a long time and she is sticking with me during this transition period which to be frank will be over real soon due to the amount of Love and support she has given me during the past month.
I Love her, and if any of my friends have a problem with me spending all my time with person in my life that makes me happy well then im sorry.
But I love her and she is a part of my life now and I would do anything for her.
- Mood:
amused - Music:Boston
I was bored so i walked out of class to make an entry.
I was thinking that halloween is coming up so i need a costume.
I would like to go as someone from cool runnings, or dr. phil
and i would like to carve a pumpkin of the count from sesame street
or maybe i should be the count for halloween " six bats ah ah ahhhh"
My fall break is monday and tuesday
Elizabeths is thursday and friday.
I dunno, but I get to see RENT on friday, and maybe have a party on saturday
Balls to walls sand, or early halloween, aka pumpkin fun
then next friday i get to dress up and go to a wedding
"you know being a couple young kids grinding up on each other having a good time and shouts playing "Hey ehh hey ehh""
~wedding Crasher~
Things are going well, i just need to get my job for the spring and do well in school.
I really am busy and I have started a routine this semester which involves school, work, sleep, weekend, party.
Its just to repetitive right now
atleast she keeps me on my toes.
Friday- I waited to decide weither or not to go to the st. x game. But in the end I gladly decided not due to the flood that was casted on louisville. so insted my parents invited elizabeth and I out to dinner. Which I might ad was very interesting to see how she is around my family with out cara and greg there to take off focus. But she did well and I feel like she fits in with my family. Which I like and it became more self evident today because my mom was keeping secrets with her. anyway the night was followed with greg and cara coming in town and us meeting them to go get food.
Saturday- I got up around ten to pick up elizabeth ( which was early) and greg and cara to take them to tailgaters to watch the uofl game. the game was fine but then we were asked to leave because there was a gas leak in the restaruant. After finishing the game at my house eliz and I went to shogun with her family which was great (it was my first time), and I really felt like a part of her family on saturday. It was nice. after that we met up with greg and cara to watch Jackass 2, which was interesting at the least but made me want to cry from laughing half the time.
Sunday- was different but came to soon, I dont like being this needy but I miss her, and its hard on me during the week without seeing her. I miss her to much
Also her mom got us tickets for rent "Sch Sha"
Tuesday: I woke up and I went to school where I was encountered by a ignorant girl in a Kia or civic or something anyway, she felt the need to back into me to try to take the parking spot that i was sitting in front of patiently to take. I found it funny though because My huge as bumper in front of my jeep scratched her paint up and what did it do to me,.. absolutely nothing. So I'm definitely in love with my car right now. It takes shit from no foreign little cars. needless to say I got the spot.
It was a rough day though, I was extremely lonely
Wednesday: I woke up in a bad mood. I was angry with school and I missed her, so I thought to myself, Fuck it ! I'm going to western right now, So I did. Trish found out and flipped her shit "the whole Im a terrible child thing" anyway but I guess I could understand because I hate telling her Im driving somewhere, because she worries. So I lied about what I was doing today, she found out somehow and because I lied about that she didnt believe the fact that I had no class on thursday (and I really didnt) but that already got me dug in a hole of disbelief. Anyway so I got there pretty fast. And completely surprised her, she was hitting me, in disbelief that was there but then it soaked in.
Ive never seen her so happy, I want to always make her this happy. Seeing her this happy lifted many things of my chest.
So I had dinner with her, and I stayed the night at her friends dorm.
Today: I woke up and have been wondering westerns campus all day, Its really interesting. I took a couple of pictures of the burned down Sigma Alpha Epsilon house (my fraternity) and walked to meet Elizabeth in front of one of her classes.
Im going to meet her later for lunch and then come home I guess.
I used to be this needy then I changed and I havent been this needy in a long time, but I feel like I have a good thing going right now, and I dont want it to stop. I know I have some more growing up to do but...
I need her and I want her
"dont let me mess this up"
Im crazy about her
and this is the Gospel according to Matthew
behavoral disorders
In an honest discussion, Do you really think they are right?
i've often wondered if I actually every took any perscribed nonsense, would my school experience be better, and would I function more properly.
Im just aggravated and envious of the people who put enough faith into taking perscriptions just because they are inept. Is it really ok? I say im envious in a way is that I wish I didnt feel guilt in a way that I wouldnt be myself anymore if took any perscribed nonsense.
i would be Matt 1.1 or Matt .9 which ever way it moves me.
Would the people that care about me or like me now still feel the same way about me.
In a way I think some arguements on this level relate to a rediculous way out of a self enveloped problem
im sorry if you cant relate to the christian thing but.... for example do you ever hear stories of jesus christ curing the attention deficited child, or curing the manic depressant adult, NO.
I dont know I just wonder
to me its more of a fight in which does the result out way the change
If I could wake up in a different place, at a different time, could I wake up as a different person? ~Chuck Palahniuk, Fight Club, Chapter 3
FUCKING STRESSED OUT OF MY MIND
I am definetly a midget in a cornfield today
things kept waking me up last night
on another note
I miss Elizabeth too much
thank God for this weekend
I find myself shedding some old friends, but keeping the ones that matter, at least to me...
Im just ready, not to grow up but just to change some of my habits.
Im tired Still of doing some of the stupid things I used to do in my youth.
In someone else's eyes it could seem like im being boring... you can think that, I have no control over that
But to me, there are things personally that I would like to get out the way in the next five years
and right now, it feels like im starting to find my path, dont get me wrong though its not my "5 year plan"..
Its allowed to bend, to ways I feel necessary, its just there are things within my immediate life that should be mended...
atleast before I start on new projects...
I need to fix my sudo relations with my family, then get my schooling in order, then focus on (selfish) whats important with me.
Im sorry to a lot of people that we didnt get to spend the time we wanted together that we wanted this summer
I dont want to make excuses but if you know me well you know that I was inhibited the whole summer.
Kelly- Im sorry I didnt see you when you left, you know you and I have been friends for a long time, and not seeing each other for awhile wont hurt our friendship you know we will spend time together when you are back in town.
Mike- I understand why you dont come around as much, and thats why I have tried not to give you such a hard time this summer
abigail- thank you for letting me vent to you, all the time, drunk buddy
jennifer- regardless of the conversations we have had with the disagreements, I still wished you were around longer tis summer
I dont wont to make anyone angry its just I feel like within our friends sometimes Im specifically pointed out, and Im tired of people pretending to like me.
so if I dont show up to something there might actually be a reason
or its just I dont feel like dealing with drama
and yes I do have a girlfriend and I do like spending time with her because I care about her a lot, she is a part of my life so be nice to her if your trying to be nice to me
- Location:mckinley mansion
- Mood: depressed
- Music:wilco-theologians
Ymca
touching the floor
a hicky
rum
jager
"some bobby brown"
black and white posters
hmm and a girl ....?
like midgets in cornfields I need to see above it
goodnight
